So, I’ve stopped smoking.
Basically, I got to work, exited my car, walked down two flights of stairs, got to the front door of the office and realized I had forgotten my bag in the car. By the time I got back to the car, I was pretty damned winded. That’s just not acceptable. So I finished smoking all of my cigarettes except for one, bummed two from a coworker, and then smoked the last one I had.
There’s a reason for that. It’s very important to acknowledge and enjoy the (hopefully) last cigarette you’ll have. At least it is if you’re using my method.
We’ll see how this goes, but cigarettes are tricky. They’re more than just an addiction, they’re something to do to fill in all the little meaningless gaps in the day. It’s really easy to say, “Well, one wouldn’t hurt.” Which is, of course, insane. It’s not like you would say, “Well, just one more injection of sweet, sweet heroin won’t hurt.”
In fact, you would say that if you were a heroin addict, otherwise we could just eliminate the word “relapse” from our dictionaries. Crazy addictions.
I am definitely irritable. Blah, I’ve got stuff to go do… God damn it.
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so what’s your method? Please don’t yell at me for asking.. I know how it is to be without for a while.
I just stop. Nothing any more special than that. The most important part is fully enjoying and acknowledging your last one.